Monday, May 8, 2006

We went up to see her last night, it was a nice quiet way to spend an hour.  I let Scott hold her so that he gets plenty of time with her too, and I sat next to them.  Got a couple pics of her and daddy too :-)  We were also there for her weigh-in, and she is over 3 lbs now!!  She's 3 lbs, 1.1 oz.  They said she's doing great with her feedings and they added the powder supplement and she tolerated that just fine so they are pleased with that.  The IV should come out tonight or tomorrow. 

I talked to her doc today, and she said that the nasal cannula is going to probably be in for a while yet.  She is still having a few short apnea spells, actually I don't think they even consider them real apnea b/c they don't last long enough and are self-corrected, but it is enough that they aren't willing to take out the tube just yet.  I asked her how long these breathing spells will last, and she said most babies stop them by 36 weeks.  Scott was really disapointed with that, I could tell, because he was really hoping she would be home much sooner.  But we will take it one day at a time.  Her other doc, the weekend one, said that they might start lowering the flow a little late this week and see how she tolerates that, but we'll see.  It's going to be a looooonnnngggg road, but it will be worth it in the end.

I'm getting to the point where I'm really stressed out though.  I had a real rough time after we got home last night.  I'm so worried that I'm not doing what's right for Brendan, that I'm dragging him all over the place too much and not providing enough normalcy for him, plus I know I'm not taking good enough care of myself.  My mom got on my case about it last night, in a good way, and reminded me that it has only been a week since I had major surgery and that I am sleep deprived and need to take care of myself.  I'm also worried b/c my milk supply seems to be dwindling, I'm not getting as much as I used to.  I'm still getting more than she's eating, but not much and as she eats more she's going to need more than I'm producing right now.  I'm trying to keep myself hydrated but its hard to do when I'm running all over the place and eating at fast food places that just have pop.  I need to keep an eye on my stress level and on my mood, I had a bit of post-partum depression with Brendan (did not last long, not very severe or anything) and am worried that I'm heading there again this time.  I have an appointment with my doc on Thursday, so I will talk to him about it then.

Oh, these pics are the ones from last night, one of them you can see her official weigh in and there's one of her and daddy.  :-) the one photo of her with her weight was a bit graphic, so Scott put a little cover up on her and the text says "I'm a girl"  LOL. 

6 comments:

kteaches said...

The "cover-up" oval/text is too cute.  :-)  I like that idea.  The pictures are sometimes too precious not to share, but posting them doesn't always feel right.  Good compromise idea on Daddy's part!  :-)

I keep calling my husband over to check out the pictures and Meghan's progress.  He is also happy for you all, although he doesn't always get the "online friend" concept.  :-D

Hugs!

Kelly in Ohio

iffer said...

Scott doesn't get the online friend thing either.  I told him its like our long distance friends, we don't get to see eachother much but we talk often.  :-)

scrappingatorfan said...

What a beautiful girl you have there Jen!  Now, take care of yourself too!

Hugs from Florida

Tara
ScrappinGatorFan

lanamoo4 said...

Awwww...Jen!!!  She's just too tiny and too sweet!!!!  I'm so glad to hear she's doing so well.     Keeping you guys in my prayers :)   Hugs!!!!  Shelana

celticdreameretn said...

Jen, how about trying to make a conscience effort to always have a water bottle with you were ever you go. Just as you always pack up stuff for the babies make sure YOUR water bottle is there too. Of course than also make sure you drink it -LOL- I always tried to tell myself I would have one finished by ----and another by--
Kymberly

stampnscrap1128 said...

My dh totally understands the online friends thing.  In fact, he asks nearly every day about Meghan - granted he doesn't always remember the name... usually it's "How's that little baby in Texas doing?"  LOL   Hugs from Mary in OK (and hugs to Meghan from my dh)